i have my reasons

i'm gonna say somethin very appalling, then after all the "wtf is wrong with u" and the "this guy is beyond any hope of redemption" then i shall explain my reasons. ok so here goes:

my grandma is very sick in tan tock seng hospital but i do not wish to go visit her.

ok shoot away!

u done yet?

ok u're done. my turn. here are my reasons:
1) she speaks cantonese, which i understand little to none of. tell u the truth i think i understand french as much as if not more than i do cantonese. "why" u ask...cos i rarely visit my granny, and when i do, all i do at her place is eat and watch tv.
2) she is in a critical stage of stroke where she has little memory retention. meaning to say she cant remember things well. my mom even said granny cant recognise her. i was like 'she cant even recognise her own daughter?!' so now what makes u think i wanna go there and then not be known to her?
3) u know when people say they dun wanna see their loved ones suffer? i mean it when i say that. not that i'm unfilial or anything but heck i cant do shit even if i go there man, i aint no doctor. i mean, just go there for the sake of goin there? i aint much of a hypocrite lar.

so in the end, i dun see any point in me goin down. if u lump the 3 points together, u get this: she wun recognise me and since i dunno her language, i cant really tell her who i am in relation to her, and if i cant communicate with her and she dun recognise me, then for fuck i go down there and get the "fuck off" from her? makes no meanin rite?! if u still think i have to go down since i'm her grandson, then i have nothin more to say....