All people have their insecurities, women included. Deal with it. If she wasn't willing to share her insecurities with me, she wouldn't be willing to go into a relationship with me. Women only share their insecurities with the people that they feel close to or attracted to.
Secondly, as much as women want to deny it, they are mostly just as horny as guys. Why else are women magazines advertising sex just as much as men's magazines? There were times when she got more horny than me.
Lastly, do not break your personal rules even in a relationship. It's like going against one's morals: not to be done. I made that mistake many times during the relationship and set myself up for failure. I'm really sorry about that Niloufer.
In conclusion, I broke up with a girl with a good heart for all the wrong reasons, thinking she was super needy and insecure when it was just that all women look to their man to get security.
However, while I regret breaking up with her, I have to thank my Guinness brother for always being there for me, and telling me to man up and face my decisions. If not for him, I never would have stayed separated from Niloufer and would not have found out her true character till deeper into the relationship. That would take more time to heal.
Niloufer, my last words to you, if you even by some weird chance manage to find this page will be: respect your body as I have respected you as a person. What you did was simply low. If you cannot respect your own body, none of your relationships down the road will last (and don't blame it on your preference for Chinese guys).
Just me ranting: To think that you told me about wanting to stay single for the year 2013, that you will be back in town in a few years time and we could pick up where we left off if I wanted. Guess its more lies that you never could stop telling huh? And to think that you would make out with me while chasing another guy, I quite frankly felt disgusted by that also. Then again, it's probably my jealousy speaking.
Well so that's that. Goodbye. What I need now is to get to know more people. Till then, cheers people! To Arthur!
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