i'm in a bad mood...

as the title suggests, i'll just be rambling abt what caused my foul mood today.

1stly lemme say that i am not that racist. i just cant stand ppl who try and cause trouble.

ok so i was in the bus coming back from work...so naturally i would be tired and well a bit restless. so there was this stop where these 2 fucking bangalas came up and stood like just beside my seat (it was a one seater). so now i have no problems with that... i mean the bus isnt exactly what u would call spacious but there was enough room for those fuckers to stand further away lar.

so as the ride went on, one of them kept banging his crotch against my shoulder when the bus swayed abit. at first it was just a little tap so i ignored it. then it gradually became more and more elaborate with sometimes half his body leaning on to me!! i mean wtf!! no psychomotor skills ar??

then when i told him off once, he went behind me and started yaking away loudly on his phone...why i say loudly was cos i could her him through the crazy drum beats of dragonforce and sonata arctica on my mp3 blasting away at my ears.

here comes another good part! then he sneezes my way w/o covering his mouth. how i know? i saw it in the reflection from the window.

fuckers like these just make ppl shun their race more. never in my life have i hated a bangala so much that i wanted to fucking uppercut his balls!! i wanted to do that so badly i had to take deep breaths to prevent myself from doing stupid stuff!! my 2 year jail term taught me well here lol...

to all my female friends...

this post is not against all my female friends or female readers (if any). this is just to let u know what i feel.

the scientific term for anorexia is anorexia nervosa. i feel there are quite alot of girls who have some form of this today. there are those with a more severe case of anorexia but not extreme yet. but my advise is that if ur friends or even ur bf tells u that u ain't fat, then YOU ARE NOT FAT!!! period.

if u still do not believe me, have a look at how this mental condition makes ur body look "more and more like a supermodel". here are pictures taken from a website chilloutpoint.com

if u think these girls are beautiful then by all means carry on eating a few grains of rice or none at all. sheesh i'm even surprised these girls still got 2 lumps on their chest!! well anyway, its ur choice. =)

tempo is king, rhythm is queen

so recently i went for another lesson and i found out why my solo-ing is so bad that i cant even bear to listen to an entire piece of my own solo-ing. this phrase changed my life: follow the tempo and only go out of tempo on purpose.

wow, that was worth the whole lesson's fees. my whole solo-ing came together perfectly when i managed to sync my feet to the beat. (rhymes eh) ultimately when one follows the tempo of the rhythm, the solo will sound nice, whether one is using the chord tones or not. of course one should be in key, unless using out-of-key notes on purpose.

hmmm since the last post, my band has had two performances. the first was actually more of a competition than a performance, but there were still people looking at us play.after the second performance, we decided to expand our circle of friends and clicked with other bands, namely pinktips and i can't remember the name of the other band lol.

this other band that i cant remember, has some members that somehow irk some members of my band. it may be just due to the way they look and carry themselves or it may be actually due to the personality clashes, like me and choy. i just hope these issues get settled soon, better to make friends than enemies i think. but of course i can't please everyone right? haha.

12th june 2010

ok its time for my 1st actual gig! and no, playing in front of the masses in camp doesnt count. this is gonna be something i'll remember for a long time. gan is afraid he might get stage fright and flop the solo but i think he'll do just fine considering we're doing an easier song to get into the mood for sweet child. i too am worried that i might get stage fright and strum till i drop my pick. the only thing i'm worried abt is dropping my pick lol. happened once before during jamming, damn suay!

since its a short gig and there're gonna be a whole lotta metal and screamo bands there and that we're only gonna play like 2 or 3 songs, i've only invited a few friends. namely yentze, yanrong and yinyin. that group included phua for abt 1 outing. following that he broke up with yanrong -_- i was like ok yan and phua are attached! and the next thing i know they're over...wtf?! that's fast lol...

ok shall not say anymore, its over alr. but now...i've got a dilemma. i was originally thinking of chasing yan before i knew she was attached to phua. i just couldnt bring myself to do it cos either i was too chicken to make a move or i just didnt wanna spoil a friendship. now that they're over, my brain's going gaga again. but deep down i know i aint ready for a relationship yet! maybe its cos i've got phobia of commitment. maybe its cos i really dunno what to do with the girl after like a few months. town? sentosa? been to almost every attraction in spore alr lol. furthermore, i know yan and i got almost nothing in common. almost nothing, except tennis =p

ok screw it...i'll just see how it goes. next week is gonna be hell...4 days without touching the guitar!! wtf!! i'm gonna have to practice very slowly on friday to get back my touch =( and thats just a few weeks before my gig!! haiz...fucked up life that this jail term is!! screw u!!

women who wanna "look" beautiful

no, this is not just abt the woman i tried to help today. its abt me also. this post is for discerning and open readers only.

i was gonna be late for driving today. and when i reached amk mrt station, this lady just literally fainted in front of me. ok not directly in front but about 3m in front of me. another guy was walking past her and he just stopped starred and walked off. i went wtf!

i went up to her and tried to ask her what happened. and instead all i got was silence -.- she was fucking pale! after awhile she finally managed to blurt out "find me a seat". things went swirling through my mind! what am i to do with this slightly above average looking ah lian dressed to show? so i just tried what i can to get her to a seat.

thing is before i could get her there, she just collapsed again -.- this time an elderly woman came over to my aid. she applied some god knows what lotion on her forehead and asked me if the girl was my gf. HELL NO!! sorry but ah lians just aint my type lol. anyway, i just told her that i just met this lady so i dun even know her!

this time she blurted out some more words, "get me a cab". ok! now u want a cab...where u headed? work? "orchard central". thats it! wtf u headed to town for if u cant even stand on ur 2 feet!! but she still insisted that i bring her to a cab headed for town. ok fine if u've got a death wish, i wont stop u.

by this time the person at the train control station came over to our aid. he and the elderly lady helped her to the taxi stand while i went to hail a cab. on the way back, the lady was on the floor again, this time with her legs wide open. to make things worse, she was wearing not a skirt but a one-piece blouse with a short skirt end. so needless to say the view was very inviting lol. turquoise colour panties :D but ok nvm i digress. we helped her up again and got her into the cab.

luckily for her the cab driver was a lady. so no worries of driver taking advantage of this lady in such a bad condition. all those who helped her happened to be headed somewhere and thus we had to leave her in the cab alone. i hope she made it somewhere safe and familiar b4 she knocks out again.

one thing i didnt think abt was getting her phone and asking her which was her bf or closest friend's no. should have done that. then its easier to know she's safe. i was thinking abt her safety the entire driving lesson that i couldnt concentrate properly -.-

but on the way to the train, the elderly lady told me chances are she's not eating properly if at all so she can stay slim and beautiful. haiz, what girls will do just to look good. i dun think she looked good when she was on the floor with that pale face. she looked just plain scary!!

ok thats the end of the 1st part of this post. 2nd part. me time. :D

nothing good though despite the smiley face. i had this feeling that if i cancelled my driving lesson and went into the cab with her, i might have taken advantage of her. why do i have this feeling when i'm already so stressed??

as it is, sleep doesnt come easy anymore at night. i fret so much so that i cant even stand up straight! i completely ignored (unintentionally) the petrol station uncle waving at me when i walked past him. but when this happened, the feeling just came out in an instant! why? whats wrong with me??

been super down lately, felt like crying last night but no tears came out...

down on luck?

yea probably. not sure whats going on but this year has been pretty rough so far.

lets start on the updates from the previous post abt my fender 54rs strat. 1stly, it isnt really a fender, nor is it a re issue. i went to music connection to get my N&M pickups swapped out and the guy told me the guitar was custom made. the guy who bought it from him (believe it or not the original shop who made the guitar has seen its works come back to him lol) had him ship in the body from all parts usa. so body wood confirmed, its alder. =D

2ndly, the pickups were changed to dimarzio area 58(N) and dimarzio virtual vintage blues(M). both are fucking quiet even under high gain. pretty big thing for me considering my gain level is set to like near max most of the time lol.

next up, i did say i was gonna change amp. so here it is. my new amp: the blackstar ht-5 all tube amp. kinda lazy to get the specs all down so i'll just post a link here. nope not the full one, just one speaker unit only. not enough moolah for 2 haha. bloody $705 leh!! add another speaker and i'll go broke! the sound is much much better than my sound drive amp. but then again i cant compare both since one is a tube amp and the other a solid state. now here's the 1st problem: after a few days, i realised that when i sustain a note w/o doing a vibrato, the sound starts to distort abit. this becomes more apparent on my scalloped frets on the higher strings. called the shop, they said nothing wrong and told me they'll call me when the guy gets back from his overseas trip. waiting in progress...

now my desktop, the acer aspire m7720 has been pretty stubborn lately. it wont stay on for more than 10min before going through a spade of rebooting. catch no ball?? before 10 min, the com will just shut down, not the normal way, but as though i cut the power source. then it will reboot and before it hit the startup screen, it shuts down again and reboots. this process carries on and on till i have to just cut power. now i'm using my mom's com. its pathetic!! fucking slow!! acer better give me a good explanation for this. the com was completed in the factory under a year ago! wtf!! and now this thing happens -.-

my insurance agent. yes. he doesnt even know his product well. i've got a policy that has alr matured but i'm still paying for it. and when i ask him. guess what?! he cant give me an answer that isn't laughable. of cos when i say laughable i mean ridiculous enough to make me wanna throw my shoe in his face. u are alr in a line that nobody wants to work in, selling products people dun wanna buy. the least u could do is know ur products well, no?

but luck isnt on my side, as it hasnt been since like sec 3. last year was ok though, not as rough sailing. this year just stinks, and its just the beginning. haiz...